Happy New Year!!

Happy New Year for 2014!!

I have a had a great start to the new year! Just simply hanging out with a few people who mean something to me. It was simple, relaxed and fun. With a few drinks… and fireworks on the beach. I couldn’t have asked for anything better! 

Then today I played board game upon board game and a few card games too with a couple of my friends and it reminded me of my childhood days. A lot of time back then was spent simply doing just that. 

So like normal instead of the new years resolution that might get broken my April… I have a small list of more things I want to do in 2014:

– Do a better job of looking after my teeth

– Get rid of unwanted stuff! 

– Exercise more

– Catch up with friends and family more often

– Spend quality time with above mentioned

– Do some volunteer work

– Complete my creative writing class and some stories too

– Save for a car now that I have my driver’s licence

I think that will do for now…

I hope you have all enjoyed celebrating the new year and that you remember that 2014 will the best that it can be! 

🙂 

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7:30am is my new sleep in time!?!?

7:30am on a Saturday morning and I am awake? I never would have thought that I would wake up at this time without an alarm clock on a weekday let alone a Saturday. During the week I have to leave the house before 6am to get to work on time. My alarm is set at 4:45am and I’m usually up by about 5:20. There are still some normal me things that I do of a morning.

I know that my body clock has changed… but it still seems odd to me. During the school holidays slowly and slowly I was able to sleep in later. But these days as it gets closer to 9pm you’ll see me nodding off. My latest night on the school holidays would have been 11pm. Not very late by my standards…

It’s interesting how my job as changed my lifestyle and what I would consider quite dramatically. I sometimes dream back to last year and the years before. The days that I was part of the education system as a student. I had days off that I could claim as “study days”.  I felt my life to be very busy. I have only been a part of the working world for what? two months? And yet I am already noticing the dramatic shift.

I remember back to when I finished high-school and was moving on to uni. I had this feeling, as though I was in a grieving period where I was at a loss. I decided to take a year off. To this day I would say that, that was one of the best decisions I have ever made. However, during that year I wasn’t really transitioning. I didn’t have that “phase” as some might say. I was almost in limbo. I was missing school and did not know what was to come of me.

At the start of this year I worked in a factory. That taught me not to get a job in a factory. In the middle of year I travelled with my mother. That taught me to see the world, just maybe not with my mother… although surprisingly enough I would go overseas with her again. But that’s another story for another time. By the end of the year I was working at a general store. I loved that job. It taught me more about the confidence I had inside that there was there all along but that I had never believed existed. Once that year was over however, I was ready for my course to begin.

I started uni and in some ways it felt as though I was back at school again. The change was not that different. I was still missing school but for different reasons. I was missing my friends not school itself. It felt good to be in a place where I worked out a good routine, a good way to study and to enjoy my placements at schools. I can’t believe I am already reflecting back upon my uni life. It’s too soon.

It feels too soon for a lot of new changes. But I guess in working in before and after school I get to experience another year “off” so to speak. Everyday I am learning new things. About me, the children, the school and the parents. I am certainly seeing myself grow as a person. I have this kind of confidence that similarly to my job at the general store was always there but I never believed existed. 

Learning from life and our experiences is great. If it means waking up earlier to do so. Then I’m happy. I’m happy because I’m working, not everyone is these days. If life were as simple as putting all the pieces of the puzzle exactly where they were meant to go. We would all be bored. That would be sad.

I’m happy that I haven’t had things happen in my life just as they “should” be because I have learnt so much. I believe to be a much stronger person because of it.

Awake at 7:30am on a Saturday? I shouldn’t really complain and question it. I will choose to enjoy it. Enjoy listening to the birds outside my window. Enjoy relaxing in bed. Enjoy the fact that I’m awake earlier enough to go down to a gluten-free cafe and buy their amazing gf bread. Plus I have still had a two hour sleep in. So I think I’m doing pretty well. 🙂

Signing off – I need to get up, feed the cat and get me some (gf) bread!!

I’m no longer who I was anymore

I have just read my first post of the year. I’m no longer that person anymore. I cannot believe that in the space of nine months that I have changed as much as I have.

I have learnt so much about who I am in such a short space of time. I can honestly say that I now accept who I am, all that I am and who I will be. Acceptance of myself has given me the freedom to be who I am and just for me.

Today was one of those typical Melbourne days. This morning I left my house and it was cold, arrived to where I was heading and it was muggie, by mid-morning it was stormy, by the afternoon it was steamy and by the time I got home again it was windy and cold. Typical! Typical is all I can say.

The point of me telling you about the weather is that with this ever-changing day I started wearing my jeans as one would normally and decided to roll them up because they had gotten wet and were uncomfortable. I couldn’t be bothered to unroll them back to how they were ‘meant’ to look so I didn’t and on my way home it struck me that I didn’t care. I didn’t care because I actually felt comfortable not just in my rolled up jeans but in my own skin.

Through job-searching and many rejections I’ve realised that none of it actually matters.

We all get there eventually. I want what I want in my life and because I know who I am, my determination and persistence – I know that I will get there.

My Mum told me today that she was proud of me. That’s all a daughter wants, is to make their parents proud and as I see my mother as a person that took on both parental roles; I feel like I’ve done my job. While even though these words are making me cry. It’s not because I’m sad, it’s because I’m happy.

Today was such a great day! I got to spend it with someone who I care about, I very much enjoy her company and felt very much appreciated for me and what I do for people. I arrive home and find a parcel for me. First thought is: uh-oh… I don’t remember ordering something from *insert name of company here* what have I done? I open the parcel. It’s from Pigeon Hole, NT – a 2013 calender of photos of the kids I taught – how wonderful! I end the day with a catch up with Mum and the viewing of “Brave”… I’m exhausted. But I feel great!!

Things will work out in the end. 🙂 The best thing is realising that I know I can do it.

I sit here today as a woman about to experience my next chapter. As I knew but didn’t quite believe back in 2007. Life is beautiful.

Signing off to grab a glass of water and get ready for bed!

Enjoy it and stop worrying about your next step!

“Your purpose may not always be obvious, but always remember that you do have a purpose.”

—- Rodney Williams —-

I feel like I’ve gotten to the part of my life that’s like being in transit at the airport. I’m waiting for the plane to be ready to fly me to my next destination. I completed my university degree about two weeks ago now and believe to have experienced a downward spiral of emotions from my initial release and relief of finishing. My Mum has reminded me that where I am in my life at the moment is ok.

Completing my degree is a huge achievement and what I have found hard is to sit with this thought. To be in the moment.

I’ve been on a whirlwind of job searching and working in my current job/s as a nanny/babysitter and even though I have had more time than when I was a student it’s almost like I feel like I haven’t had the time to do anything else. I haven’t even had a couple of drinks with friends! How crazy is that?

Stress has taken over and what or who for?

Within the last few days I have decided that for now on I just have to live my life how it is, be in the moment and see where it takes me. Mum is right, it’s ok. It’s totally ok.

I’ve had many conversations with people who know me well recently about my life about what I’m trying to “figure out” and the best thing that I heard is “to stop worrying about figuring it and just have some down time because even when you think you have figured it all out, you really haven’t”
All I can say after hearing that is that I feel much better about it all. It’s not to say that I’ll put a stop to all that I’ve been doing. It’s just to say that I’m going to do my best to enjoy finishing something that has taken four years of my life to complete.

I put so much pressure on myself sometimes and I think that it’s taken me the last four years to realise this about myself. I’ve had a tough four years. I’m not just talking about my studies either. In my personal life I have experienced a lot of hard things that we as human beings endure. I even got to the point last year where I was stressed so much that I became sick a lot of the time, facing a diagnosis of Coeliac Disease, having my appendix removed and dealing with other bowel and adominal problems. Three years into my degree and I was ready to give up.

Now here I am and I’ve done it. I’ve put in all the hard work. I’ve achieved great results even in the face of hard times and I’ve conquered my degree. I’m a university graduate.

I’m a teacher!

That’s the first time I’ve managed to write that, to say it do myself and it feels great!

I’m finally congratulating myself and seeing what I’ve done and how amazing it is.

Plus I’ve just organised to celebrate with a uni friend of my mine – finally!

Lesson of the day:

If you’ve just completed something like finishing school, uni, a competition or anything else that has taken a lot of work, whatever that may be.  Enjoy it, stop worrying about your next step because in time your next chapter will begin! 🙂

The Lost Virtue

Travelling in the city sometimes makes me realise that we are losing patience… but did we in this time we live today – ever have it? Is something that I have always pondered.

I’ll give you an example of what I mean:

Today when I was on a tram, the tram was coming to a stop and three elderly ladies were standing up to leave, they were found with the fact that they had to wait for the tram to stop to leave  – but someone ahead was clearly getting impatient shown by the tapping of his or her feet… the tram did come to a stop and I decided to move out-of-the-way for these women to be able to get off the tram. I then felt that someone was trying to push their way through, the tram hadn’t even been stopped for a second and then they exclaimed in a demanding voice “Excusssseeee me” as though they were the only ones on the tram. I think they were trying to get past me – but I couldn’t move at that moment because the ladies were trying to get past people ahead of them – very patiently I must add, the tram had only just stopped – so there was plenty of time for people to move out of way and still in an appropriate amount of time for people to get off and have time to get to where they were going because everyone was moving quite swiftly and there was no need for that to happen any quicker than it was.

By the time it did, the doors were still open and more people were able to depart from the tram.

I know that we’re all busy and we need to get to where we’re going on time – but the time that it took for that to happen wasn’t even a minute – why is that people need to have everything done in a micro-second?

I posted those photos of Melbourne because I took them on a day where I truly observed and enjoyed the city I live in – there were buildings, places, artworks, statues, signage, posts, etc that I never knew even existed – when I was there with my friend, I looked at everything as though a tourist would and realised what I had been missing after all these years of living here.

I don’t know too many people who really appreciate their surroundings… except of course a little two-year old I know that thinks every flower and rock is a treasure that must be kept…

We need to do that more – take in the world as though we’re two years old and just discovering it for the first time even if we don’t get a chance to see and absorb it all – we still need to soak up as much as we possibly can and that I think includes our own city…even if you don’t live in totally awesome Melbourne.

Better yet – have the patience to wait for the tram to stop before you get up so that you don’t fall over in the process, which goes the same for J-walking so that you don’t get hit by a car or don’t shuff past people on the street because they have to walk there too. I know that I have gotten frustrated when going somewhere and that I J-walk on the odd occasion – but not to the point where mine or someone’s safety/well-being is being compromised.

Patience is so important and needs to be practiced by everyone and I’m not just talking about young people either – sometimes I think they have more than those grouchy oldies 😛

Lesson of the day:

The old saying goes “Take time to stop and smell the roses” well I say take time just to stop… look around, think and take everything in because you never know what you just might see and enjoy – in the same way as two-year olds of course 🙂

Look out for each other – we’re all just doing our best, so take a deep breath and wait until it’s your turn because it doesn’t mean you’ll miss out it just means that it’ll taste better when you receive it.

Signing off as I have a VERY early start tomorrow!